Not being picked

Do you remember when the teams were picked for games at school? How sickening it was if you were last, or even towards the end alongside people you thought had 2 left feet or whatever the sport was? Well this was how I felt when I found out I was 1st reserve for the next race at Brands. My entry appears to have been at the bottom of a big pile and they can allow 34 to qualify but only 28 to race and I was 29th. This was nothing personal but logic was overtaken by childhood insecurities and I stomped around for a while. All my fellow competitors (who I pleaded with to pull out) have assured me that someone will not make it to the race but I am not that keen on wishing for someone to have a problem I have had too many myself to want others to suffer - and of course it might be me.......

Anyway I will be going and will see what happens after practice. One other issue will linger on though - if I get in do I start from the back, regardless of my qualifying position? Only time will tell.